Alter Ego

… From: Andy Wiraatmadja [mailto: andy.wiraatmadja@dpa.com.sg] Sent: October 25, 2012 7:15 To: Felicia Chandra [mailto: felicia.chandra@gmail.com] Subject: long wiken ;-) dear licia, how are you doing there? missing me too much already? how is your job? busy as hell as usual? how is the merger stuff? me? well… just like my last job in Jakarta, in Singapore… i don't find any different… i guess, i should questioning my decision already… :D but it's really cool here, with everything… you should visit me soon… how about the next long weekend on november, you could ask for a day leave… if you arrange your ticket now, it wouldn't be too pricy… okay, baby? looking forward to have your reply any time soon.. beside… i want you to meet someone.. someone special… long kisses, ps.  no matter how you beg for it, i won't tell you over the mail or phone…  :d … From: Felicia Chandra [mailto: felicia.chandra@gmail.com] Sent: Oct

… i've been working here for 4 years now… it's been wonderful years, new knowledge, experience, friends and all… walaupun sebenernya gak sejalan sama latar pendidikanku, tapi aku suka kerja disini… kerjaanku bener2 sesuai dengan profilku, yang seneng banget ketelitian dan kadang sedikit perfectionist (sedikit  aja)… eehhmm… okay, i admit… i am perfectionist! but this couple of months, bekerja disini sedikit agak berat juga… karena partner kerjaku pindah keluar negeri, suaminya kuliah ke Australia, dan dia sangat senang untuk ikut, apalagi dengan tawaran untuk kerja di HQ… orang2 yang dekat denganku semua pergi jauh, Andi yang memutuskan untuk kerja di Singapura, mbak Diah yang pindah ke Australia… aku merasa jadi agak gamang, belum lagi perasaan ini yang selalu mengganggu… mengganggu konsentrasi, perasaan tersisihkan, perasaan cemburu, perasaan kurang cukup baik… aaahhhh… aku harus melakukan sesuatu untuk membuang semua perasaan ini… pengganti mbak Diah,

… i saw him today… ganteng banget hari ini… dengan kemeja biru muda, dasi dan celana biru tua, i wonder if those clothes he wore are choosen by his wife or by his mistress… and why still i keep my feeling for him? i knew he called her today… i heard they're talking over the phone when we're on the elevator… i shouldn't have listened, but i just couldn't help it… his voice is addiction to me… just like his figure, his face, his eyes to my eyes… … i saw her today, so gorgeus with that pink dress… she looks so cute in that blooming dress… kaya' anak kecil sebenernya, apalagi pipinya juga merona pink gitu… sepertinya sih bukan make up, atau entahlah… bikin aku gemas pengen membelai pipi itu… andai dia kenal aku… aku tau, kalau matanya sebentar2 melirik laki2 itu… laki2 yang berbicara mesra di telpon, entah dengan siapa… mungkin dengan istrinya… kenapa dia harus melihat laki2 itu dengan mata kagum? padahal laki2 bahkan tidak menjawab salam se